Received an interesting note from a young guy that has tons of questions hope this topic help him and other people.

When i was a kid, im talking about 10 years from here back in time, were there as internet on the phone, cellphones were for the rich and crap like that, and when Pearl Jam ruled, and real old anime was in this side of the world.

A teacher, yelled at me in front of all the class, saying "What are you doing here?, you dont have a sense of design, you dont have what it takes to be a graphic designer, you should be somewhere else. I wanted to find a rock in the school and hide below it, or simple dissapear, or closing the eyes and thinking that was a nightmare.

So yeah, that was my first semester on a graphic design school. Nobody starts as a genius in this buisness, only a few, "i hate you chamba, you cool drawing machine", sorry about that i just wanted to say it, hahahhahaha he will kill me next con when he sees me, i think he can kill a dude with 50 different tecniques with his pencil hb.


Anyway the important question you will make each day you live its this one, i mean on the early years, you get my point, why i keep typing maybe i should say it right now, okay im playing to much with your patience i will say it, its this:

"Am i wasting my time?", can can cannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn(deadly sound, of movies, heyyy its better than using maria carey new song, i dont have enough money to put that song here, so i used a no autor right on it.)


So that question its the one you will make each time and day at the begining, let me explain why?.


All your friends are going to a party, to drink all night long, with girls and stuff, but you cant go because you have to draw. The next day people told you all the cool things that happened that day at the party, that girls got drunk, played twister all naked and had sex all day because they mixed a weird drug that change them into a sexual machines, and also they said in a small tone, forgot to say that radiohead was passing by, and they played all day long live for them. Hhahhahahhhahhahah, tecnically this always happened to me, i mean the only day you dont go to a party, all good things in life happends that day, and you wellllllllllll, you are drawing.


Youth, passes so fast, that you repeat this question all day, its like if you have a flu, and everyone its playing in the snow outside, i think this example perfectly describes what im talking about. You will feel that you dont belong to the world in a way.

But the real truth its that everyone waste their life, if you keep traveling all years, getting to europe, blahblahblah, you cant see your family and probably you will miss a lot of things like the first steps of your niece. Or if you never travel, you will waste the world experience but gain family moments. Or had sex with tons of girls, and probably die of aids, i think im going out of what im trying to say.

Life its choices, never regret any bad choice you had made, good choices and bad choices its what make you what you are today.

Your body its a drawing machine, so you need to eat well, sleep well do exercises, dont drink to much, its a lot of sacrifices, because if something its unbalanced your work will not show a 100% of your truly strenght, thats why its sacrifice.


The graphic life its a road of torns, you must be concious of that. You draw all day and in the end you only want to go to sleep. You barely leave the house, all your friends are getting married, you constantly quit dating because girls dont want to do a threesome, (girsl effect saying a weird scream, he is a pervert dude, let me explain).

Why i said girls dont want a threesome, because ART its your other chick, some girls only wants you all the time and they get really jealous when you are with her.

Besides ART its a selfish BIATCH, it doesnt matter how much you study, work, gather ideas, design, etc. She will never be satisfied, sometimes he will treat you very and i mean very bad, and somedays she will be happy at you.

So art its a bipolar girl. But thats my personal experience, other people have the luck to find a nice girl that like the thresome thing and supports you, those are hard to get, because you barely go out the house. I dont mean you will be on a jail, but art will become your first priority and you will miss a lot of things in life. Im telling you this because you need to know what you are getting into.


Manny artists balance their personal life with family and work perfectly, not my case yet, but hope someday i can find a complete balance, remember this is my subjective thing to see art.

When art becomes a job, there will be days you will hate it because you draw what other people want and not what you want to draw. This field needs a lot of dedication and self sacrifice.

There will be tons of people that will tell you you cant, stop that, looks odd, stuff like that. But heyyyyyyyyyyy, you can never please people, so what do you try to hard to please them. There will be people that like your work so focus on that instead trying to please all the people.


The doubts will never fade, each day its a fight to get inspiration, to study to learn, ther will be days you cant draw, or all your works ends pretty bad, there will always be good and bad days, just like in the begining in youth.

So i ask you this, do you feel something weird when you are feeling a pencil scratching ona paper, that sometimes people tells you what are you smiling for, that you are drawing and you didnt notice that smile you had on your face.

Isnt that feeling the best drug in the world everrrrrrr (hey i have to say you dont need drugs for this, only wine, stay out of that shit, even marijuana, believe me when i tell you this, i know.)

There will be a hard road of No's all in your way, it all depends of YOU, will you put attention to them or follow your dreams?



What will it happen if i had put attention to what a crazy teacher told me when i was a kid.


Draw to shut up their negative comments, with works people will shut up. Its all about work, dont wait for a mayor company to come to your door, work harder, defeat your old self, miracles wont happend, and if it happend be sure you have the drawing skills they are looking for, so dont waste time and work, be real.

If you cant make it to this buisness, be happy that at least you tried, but with all your heart, i find a lot of people that i call them the tomorrow dudes, that dudes that said tomorrow i will do it, or i will get better in a couple of days and stuff, remember its all about working and deadlines. If you become irresponsible, editors will stop looking at you, sacrifice and work, tons of work. But like life there are great things on each choice you pick.

Be brave and art teachers, behave.

(this journal only reflects the boring and happy life of hector sevilla, some artists have it even harder or easier, people fitting on this category its just coincidence, dont follow sevillas words or you will end like him)