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A lot of people ask me what do i think when im drawing, whats your creative process,  and what are the magical fairies you are thinking while you draw, about life, beauty and wisdom of the world. You will be surprised how thats not what i think while i draw and how this process repeats all the time while i draw.

The purpose of this journal its to let people know how we are all filled with doubts agony and stupid funny things while we draw. So you wont feel you are doing something wrong.

Will be cool if this became a spam, and people started to share in their journals the same way i did while you are at work.


Okay, lets star, first the setting, if you had seen the tv show 24, picture that way while im drawing, with several cameras on my sides, this will make the reading more funny, if you havent seen the show picture this sound each time you read time passes, while im drawing.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=6nvKN_…

Okay lets start.


The following text its based on a true story, names , person and other stuff are fictional. If this happened to someone you may know please talk to our lawyers.

Remember picture this like a Jack Bauer show picture the sounds and camera shoots.


REAL CREATIVISM LOG


1 minute
Damn what am i going to draw today, so hard, blank canvas its to intimidating, arghhhhhh how am i going to surpass past picture, got great feed back, of course if you dont count the past 3 i made that sucked, scratch scratch on tablet, dammit i cant even hold a real pencil anymore, damn you wacooommm, wait this scratch its looking good......mmm what is this, i just dont know, erase erase erase. Man this sketch sucks, its got to be the brushes, yeah this Brushes are eviiiiiiiiilllll, they are doing my drawing wrong, let me see if i can search for cool brushes on internet, who am i joking they are going to suck too, noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, the canvas its blank againnnnnnn.

10 minutes
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, this looks so bad, okay okay dont panic, mann, i should sketch more on real pencils, were its my sketchbook, ooh its right there, damn its too far from my chair, lets steal someone else work and paint on top of it, dammit i cant do that i dont want to become an art thief they will put me in jail, i wonder if there is a jail for art thiefs, because i dont wanna take a shower with them and pick up the sopa, hhahahahahah instead of soap, so funny, anyway, i need to draw, i wonder why this client paid me to draw this thing if i suck, damn i think they should contracted someone superior like Artgerm or something, dammit can i call myself professional?. Why am i thinking this in english?, soooo weird i should think in spanish, scribble scribble.


30 minutes
What the hell is this on the canvas?, damn it has to be the brushes, let me change opacity, spacing and brush tracking, damn im wasting more time, and still looks like crap, well i will paint some pretty colors on top lets see, ooooohhh man i made it worseeeee, erase erase erase,  arghhhhhhhhhh, check composition its not making sense, shut up why are you talking to yourself anyway, damn i need to clean my room, get dusty so easier, drawings are sucking my lifeeeeeeeeee, im a zombiieeee, hey was that a hair, dammit another hair fall off, im getting old, computer its sucking my lifeeeeeeeeee, probably some people are dating right now and drinking lots of beers, lots of kisses, probably some guys are dating two girls are same time, or even better dating to girls in same room, while drinking beers, while climbing a mountain, in a Mercedes Benz, damn art doesnt leave money, i should have been a lawyer or a medic, i will had my own house and kids,,buuuuu,buuuuuuu.

31 minutes
For god sake im not crying again Mom, snif snif, its just dust, hahhahahhaha the joke mom was awesome, hits his own cheeks, dammit be a man you jerk, already 30 minutes and you have to finish this piece of poop-. Time to put a ricky martin song to charge batteries full speed.


40 minutes
Dammit another guy in deviant art thinks im a girl, because my color its pink, they never watched Reservoir Dogs or what?, well im not strong so i cant call myself a man either, ummm maybe im a lesbian, yeah yeahhhh im a lesbian, im so cool, dammit this drawing looks bad, but what is it what its wrong?


60 minutes
Umm i got a note on deviant art, wuuujuuuuuu maybe its a job offer let me read, ummmmmm... give me your list of itunes songs?, sad, thats the type of notes i get? How will i remember the songs i used 2 weeks ago, im not answering, damn you are a terrible man, talking about terrible look at this arm you just drawed, it sucks, wait a minute thats not an arm its a leg, thank God.


90 minutes
Im hungry, but i had breakfast like 2 hours ago, i wonder how many artist eats a lot of stuff while they spend all day in a chair, man soon i will lose my butt, i dont wanna get fat, maybe i will wait to eat later, damnnn i dont wanna drawwwww, i wish i had a time machine to go back and break my hands, or be a music dude, those guys get all the chicks.


2 hours
drawing drawing, ummmmm still tons of errors, maybe if i do this lets see, scribble scribble, awesomeeee that totally solves it Waaaaaaajuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu, maybe this drawing isnt that bad, lets see, ummmmmm, i wonder what others people think while they draw, i think they dont ask this silly things like me, damn i need to take a shower, stop controlling my life drawingsssss i hate yoooouuuuuu.


3 hours
Damn, look at what this guy just uploaded  minutes ago in deviantart, what a nice painting, damn that makes my drawing to look like a shitty copy, aaahhhhhhh, dont say shit say poop ,sounds cooler, okay i will say poop. Damn it what should i do, maybe i need to change this and this.


4 hours
Arghh what is this weird sensation in my face, arghh my eyes hurts, face feel so strange, dammit all the strain in the face, arghh i cant even draw 4 hours straight, my back hurts...miss old days when i drawn 24 hours and nothing, like when you get out drinking all night long slept for 3 hours and feel new. Okay okay changes done, looks cool, face looks weird, let me try it again, erase face, okay, i need to add it make up, if i were a girl, how will i use make up, yeah think its you, hahhah this will freak out people if they knew, hhahahahhaah of course im joking, i only think that when im choosing dresses,, gooodbyeeee horseeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssss, do you wanna draw me?, i will draw me myself, UUUUuuuuuuuHHHHHHHH goodbye horseeesssss.


5 hours
Painter crashes, nooooooo,noooooooooooooooooo noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo (repeat previous stages again, yeah you read me.)


5 hours one minute
Muahahahahhahha i was joking, i got a recovered file in documents, thank god painter does that properly, okay i should save the file, dammit i got tons of unfinished files stuff, maybe one day i will finish it. Lets see my stats on battlefield 3, umm kill streak of 22, im soooo awesome, need to get a longest head shoot.


6 hours
Someone is asking me how much time i take to do a drawing, hahah lets making nuts lets reply him an hour, muhhahahaha im evil, muahahahhahaahah, joking....not. This drawing its not finishing damnnnnnnnnnnnn, this is an eternal drawing, why doesnt look finished, looks like a one hour drawing, ahhhggghrhhrhrrhhhghgghghghhghgghghhghghg.


7 hours
I muss..tt... i must draw.....


8 hours
For god sake, someone enter my room and shoot me already.


9 hours
LAlalalalala lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala, laaaalaaaaaaaaaaaaa, laaaaaaa laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa



10 hours
Ufff lucky this drawing didnt took more time like the rest, its finally finisheeeee.... wait a minute, stroke stroke, okay now its finallyyyy ffff.............. wait stroke and more strokes......yayyy its finally finishee........ ooooooohhhhh for god sakes, strokes more strokes and more strokes.



11 hours
I dont give a crap anymore, lets just give this crap to the client, just like this, its not that im lazy. Sight.......... strokes strokes strokes.



12 hours
Horrible horrible, work, this is the crappiest thing i made in my life, another battle failed. Lets post it on deviant art.



12 hours ten minutes
People like it. WTF?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????



End of log.


True Story.
  • Listening to: Go-aqualia
  • Reading: imagine fx
  • Watching: Game of thrones
  • Playing: Battlefield 3
  • Eating: my pride
  • Drinking: My own tears
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:iconedwardjener:
edwardjener Featured By Owner May 31, 2012
Laughed at the ARTGERM part. :D
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OneManDraw Featured By Owner May 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
....... I felt like I was reading myself... my inner head....
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Maxis-Geryon Featured By Owner May 25, 2012
From what it sounds like, you were having a fight against your tablet! XD
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punkion Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OMG!!!0o0 thats how what I do at times, though not the part that pple like my recent stuffs....But yeah, I know what u mean in this journal.^v^
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Liansa Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
LOL @ 6hour point! Your journals are so creative :] and I hope you feel differently about your artist path and love what you can do.
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Melanth Featured By Owner May 24, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
OMFG this made my day :heart:
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Daltair Featured By Owner May 24, 2012
I used to think in a similar way, or try to be humble with stuff like "oh this drawing is horrible" "oh I don't like it" but I publish them just because I feel like it; I WAS WRONG, not because my work is great, heck it's not even close to yours, but because if I don't feel there's something good about it, the fact that people like what I do would be insulting to them, like saying "I don't like this crap, but take it, you'll probably do".
I'm not sure if I'm stating my point clearly, and maybe I'm taking this out of context (also, nobody likes to read long comments); but saying your work is crap and publishing it is like feeding your garbage to others; I tried to be humble, but by doing so I was insulting others, now even if I don't quite like my work, I don't send it off unless I think there's something worthy in them.
My work is far from the best, but it must have something good because some people like it, and I'm ok with that, I've come to terms with it.

By the elders! look at all that text I wrote, write in your own journal you leech!
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elsevilla Featured By Owner May 24, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
nah, but it must be cool feel like you that every piece its a monalisa instead of crap, hope one day i feel the same way.
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:icondaltair:
Daltair Featured By Owner May 25, 2012
I don't feel that, and it seems you didn't actually read what I just wrote, but you're a busy man, so more power to you.
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elsevilla Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
power?, like stamina, thanxs.
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